I Walk Around This Life Frightened

I walk around this life frightened

Absolutely frightened

Of the things I put forth and

don't receive in kind return

Of the sweet girl for whom I hurrah'd

But answered back with a nuh-uh!!

Of the eyes open when I wake

Seeing another god damn day

Of committing an act in innocence

But am seen as a complete terrorist

Of uncomfortably wearing a chipper mood

So as not to distress the party

Of looking in the mirror, horrified

by the broken, ugly mess before me

Of checking the wallet embarrassingly

For cash I do not have (but plenty of fucking coins)

Of wearing what I wear but knowing full well

You can't hide living 300 pound shit

Of being called out by someone

"Yes, you are a worthless bum"

Of not yet having shot myself

With the revolver in the closet

Of not being the success that my friends are

Yes, yes so successful they are

Of crying the apparent woe

When truth is I just suck

Of wasting time typing words

I foolishly think will live beyond me

I walk around this life frightened

Absolutely frightened

I am absolutely frightened